Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tuesday- and Monday recap. Personal reflection
Monday first : Monday was a terrible day I spent in bed. Upon waking up an overwhelming depression washed over me and it struck so fast and so hard I was shocked. I ended up crying listening to terrible music and reviewing over harsh things friends had said to me the previous night that made me have a long hard look @ my life. It also made me realize I have to look @ the full scope of my life and take myself out of the moment and that help give me clarity and ulimitely get up and go to work. Yes I am not happy I work @ walmart and yes I am actively looking for a job, and that will have to do. I have to many responsibilities to just quit. RENT, CAR INSURANCE, FOOD, GAS perhaps money for a date if I can even muster up the courage to ask the damn girl I like so much on date. I just need to do it, be myself and hope for the best. Just like everything else in my life, I need to relax take my time with it give it my all, and not stress about failing. THAT WAS MONDAY it was fun.
Tuesday : it's 7:36 am just got home from work. Stocking and shit it isn't that bad i don't dislike it that much.
The main thing is it's new, it's more restrictive then working for my dad at the shop, or working @ a job that I come into that I already excel at. I like knowing what I am doing inside and out, and well Walmart.. yes it is simple but there is a lot of little shit you need to get to know and everyone is so stupid and bad @ explaining shit that well you need to figure it for your self - over time - not my cup of tea. But fuck it whatever it's a job and they pay me a stupid amount 9.70 an hour. Well plans for the day...
-Clean the car.. man it is normally spotless, but my friends are fucking animals and leave shit in there... and it has gotten bad, so gotta fix that.
-Keep to the Vegan thing. I'm doing it for 2 reasons (1) Girl I like. (2) Testament of will.
-Get Erin to run + steal camera from her for operation "Times without Amber" which is a week past schedule.
-Fold all my clothes that have been sitting around for 2 days now. I hate shit all over.
Fuck around.. Write some jokes... stand up Wednesday night @Warfields.